Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Well it's been a long while since i post something on my blog.. well i guess this is it, it's gonna be a last post..
i started up this blog sometime in 2008, it is to mark ever single steps i took in my life and so on.. however, as laziness kicks in and busy spells, my blog seems dead.. hence, today i shall officially annouce it closed, but before that, i would like to dedicate my whole blog to people that afeected my life positively.
to my Famly, u r e core pillars of my life... w/o e both of u, i will nt b who i am.. i gt admit, at times, we hv conflicts in our thinking or behaviours but, i still love u all... i'm sorry that i could onli say those words in blog as i dun feel comfortable saying in upfront.. dad, despite all e past mistakes u hv done, i'm still willing to forgive u n start talking to u.. i hv built a barrier btw e both of us.. but, if u wan i'm willing 2 smash it apart, but if onli u want.. mum, thanks for being such a wonderful parent.. no words can express my love for u.. 21 years of my life, rain or shine, u hv been there for me.. juggling btw ur work n mi.. u always put mi up front.. really thankyou
to Montfort people, thanks for staying by my side all these years.. though we came from various backgrounds, families, classes, schools, etc we r still bonded together.. i have 2 say as time goes by, people change and ya sometimes, our character may not suit each other.. however, i guess its fate ba, we've been thru so much, and to jus say goodbye, its really a vry difficult task..
to SP people, although we onli knw each other like 5 yrs (excluding justin), i got 2 say, we may nt be tt close as our own cliques, but we r somehow mystically bonded by dunno wad lol... thanks for those occasional meet ups n chit chat session.. thankyou for helping me when i'm in need of help wif my r/n life...
to Innova people, yea life in jc is crap.. but we made e crap crapier.. well i'm really fortunate to be able to knw such ppl in life.. seriously they made my life in innova enjoyable and they made every outings a guai lan one because of the way we crapwif e ppl.. like how we spent 10 mins to place mac delivery order, like how we go hunt for chio bu, like how we watch winx club movie in e cinema.. lol
to EAI people, seriously, i feel at home when i'm at eai.. i gt 2 admit tt eai gave me a brand new perspective towards life, towards e things i love, towards e way i feel.. dun worry, its not any councilling organising.. its a music sch in fact.. a music sch wif beautiful memories that none of us will ever forget... i still rmb in 2007, when i first joined, i was skeptical initially, as its located somewhere near construction areas.. however, 3 years hv past, i nv regret joining.. apart frm learning knowledge abt music etc, e most impt thing abt eai was they make me feel wanted.. i was a super low confident guy, someone who doesnt dare 2 even talk 2 ppl.. eai changed mi, eai gave mi e confident, they gave mi life knowledges.. most importantly, they taught mi e importance of loving music... music has always been in my life.. since young, music nv leaves mi.. neither did music leaves anybody.. my mum sends mi 2 eat because she wans mi 2 finish her dream of singing.. i will nv forget all these.. soon eai gave mi chances to performe on stage, to experience backstage life now, i've reached my goal which is to b a producer n an instructor for eai.. i really hope tt i could share e beautiful events n experiences music has always been providing us.. thankyou eai for making mi a changed person..
to BMTC and Airforce people, i got 2 admit, u guys r e newest cliques i met in my life.. both in Tekong n Tengah.. i hv 2 say w/o all of u my life in army would b in hell.. thankyou for all e moments spent while i'm in camp or outside...
Alright guys, doubt anyone will be reading it though.. yea that's all folk this is e end of my blog.. i will leave it n hopefully in a few years time, i will start writing again.. :)
Goodbye
8:34:00 PM
the footsteps printed
take care
Sunday, April 19, 2009
its been a long while liao.. hmm sorry guys, been lazy 2 update.. well not really gotten over wif my a lvl result.. still live in fear of not going uni.. but seriously hope tt i could get into one.. i need a degree for my future.. really hope i have one please..
nowadays my sat nite r pack wif eai's event.. there's a major concert coming up tis yr end.. its really a big one as we really spent lots n lots of time discussing abt it.. its really tiring but its all worth it.. last sat dennis lao shi was tellin us abt how tough was it to do music.. how lonely he felt.. i understood how he feel n really feel vry sad over it.. i myself do feel lonely often.. hai its e way i think n e way i does work.. hai i'm always think on e bad side of life.. i really need a change.. but on e other hand i ask myself am i useless to e society? wad worth do i have? i'm a trouble-maker i'm someone who worries alot someone who is easily go depress.. i'm nothin but trouble.. so y shld i b here in e first place?? everybody hv their own meaning n defination to b here.. but do i?? i doubt so..
11:48:00 PM
the footsteps printed
take care
Sunday, March 8, 2009
got back my a lvl result.. rather a mixed feeling.. my h2 i got BBC but my gp fail.. hai felt damn sian n disappointment.. thanks for all e encouragements... i need time 2 stand up or rather jus 2 even sit up straight... but seriously i hope i'll b fine.. i've lost my smile i've lost happiness... i knw its stupid but seriously i'm tryin 2 alter my emotions.. its a blow a big blow 2 mi in my life.. i dunno how but i'm tryin 2 face it.. i'm sorry guys but i guess for awhile i wont b e same me again or rather i may nv b e same me.. many thoughts hv been going thru my head uni will they accept mi? i really hope so seriously.. i hv not been sleepin well for nights.. i keep askin am i stupid? am i dumb? y cant i pass a simple stuff... i'm useless.. jus die n forget me... hai.. i wonder how long can i control b4 i really break down.. tryin 2 hide my emotions away.. hai
10:09:00 AM
the footsteps printed
take care
Monday, March 2, 2009
Well.. its cfm tis fri e result will b release.. stress!!! stress!!! i seriously dunno how 2 face it peacefully.. jus hope for e best.. really dunno la felt vry hum abt it.. like suddenly i'm like omg!!! e pressure is worst den last yrs.. seriously let me do well n get on.. really do hope..
7:21:00 PM
the footsteps printed
take care
Sunday, February 22, 2009
well came home aft sending naph off to aus.. all e best there!!! thanks everyone for e concert regarding my appendix.. i'm ok alr.. thanks :)
well there's many prob wif mi.. i guess i really hv 2 let go of alot of things.. e more i hold on n ponder e more depress i've got... honestly i tot tt i've recovered frm my depression.. but in fact i guess its back again.. i wan 2 let go i wan my head 2 stop thinkin of stupid stuff but how?? there's an angel n a devil in my head.. both fighting both talkin both giving valid points.. who am i? what am i? get out of my head both of u..
i fear tt if my mental strength is not strong i might really go mad.. hai!!!
1:56:00 AM
the footsteps printed
take care
Monday, February 2, 2009
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG very vexed.. i'm caught in e middle of many stuff!!! i wan 2 let go!!! i stress over many stupid minor stuff tt caused mi to feel damn sian... had some prob over ns stuff.. but e worst is e fact tt i think i'm fat... so i try 2 reduce my intakes n also skip meals...
but i didn't knw tt by doin so i've caused troubles onto my own health.. last nite had a great pain in my stomach tt caused mi 2 stay awake e whole day.. den seen a doc n he told mi tt my appendix is inflamed.. now if by tml e pain still stays on or as long as i have fever... i will hv 2 go for operation immediately... no i dun 1 2 go for op.. its not e pain tt matters but e money etc... hai now i'm stuck.. how can i reduce wt n stay healthy??? hai all blame myself for being so greedy in e past tt caused mi 2 b in such a state now... hai
stress is killing mi.. in ns i always feel dread n sian over it.. i always feel tt i'm being looked down.. well e fact is tt i cant find any reason 2 feel proud of my vocation.. even though its jus 2 yrs but i wan it 2 b e most meaningful.. but now it cant... plus my a lvls result is one tt can kill mi... i really hope i can do well tis yr.. pls i really really hope.. i wan 2 get into local u...
i really hope tt e issue abt fren will nt stress mi.. please i cant take it anymore.
10:14:00 PM
the footsteps printed
take care
Sunday, January 18, 2009
well time really flies.. turn ur head arnd, i'm 20 tis yr.. seriously i'm super not use 2 it.. but i guess we all got to grow someday be it age, character, thinking or actions.
jus came hm aft a chat wif my sec sch frens.. i guess times change esp when we talked abt how hougang (hg) hv change.. in e past orchard, somerset, dhoby ghuat is like a heaven to us.. cos there's no NEL thus, to town is rather inaccessible.. thus we always spend our time in hg.. we walked in e rain we always go kopitiam n chat n we often go 2 e highest lvl in hg mall 2 sit n see girls.. lol tts was e past n tts e funnest part of my life... we prank each other we play bball tgt, get into trouble n also we always meet up 2 buy b'day present for each n every one of us.. like lam's war craft 3 expansion set.. my pencil case..
however time hv changed.. now 2 town is so easily accessible.. everything hv 2 change n we hv 2 grow up.. we really miss those days whr we do anythin n w/o stress etc.. no i understand y alot of ppl say tt sec life is e best of all.. now i understand.. because its when e transition frm teenager 2 adult.. its when emotional, physical changes sparked off.. its a period whr we undergo lots of stuff n grow frm it..
nevertheless, sec frens r impt.. jc ones too.. they also helped mi along e way in my 2 yrs.. although its short but its still meaningful too.. thinkin of e class chalet we been to.. really bring back lots of memories.. of course tis includes all e gd frens i met along e way such as emage de ppl.. they make mi knw wad i wan n whr i'm goin.. also they change my thinkin chage e way i'm n keep on encouraging mi when i'm down.. plus e time spent in sp n ocbc also allow mi 2 knw many gd frens tt will nv forget... also mus thank carol for all e time spent on mi as well as e pain n hardship u been thru.. plus others tt helped mi along e way as well... thankyou
luckily in ns.. met some really nice ppl tt make my life not as sian as possible.. thanks everyone.. there are too many ppl to thank to little time 2 spare.. i really wish for time 2 stop n let mi treasure more time wif all of my frens.. really sorry tt i cant always b there.. but trust mi.. i'll always b ur fren n help u when in need.. : )
11:28:00 PM
the footsteps printed
take care
